Tools & Ressources
Updated: May 19, 2018
Warning – Should you choose to head down the road of sobriety, don’t expect an easy ride. It’s bumpy and curvy and winding as fuck. And it stays that way for a while. And you’re probably going to fall off course and get lost, numerous times - I did - but once the day arrives that you finally get tired of your own BS and decide to omit alcohol from your life completely, the sense of freedom is overwhelming. It’s far better to go through the initial weeks & months of discomfort and reach a safe & calming place, then to continue down the torturous highway to hell. Believe me, no one ever looked back on their sobriety and said “Ya, that was a dumb idea.” Even if they fall off the wagon.
As of today, May 6th, 2018, I am roughly 5 ½ months alcohol free, or 163 days. As I mentioned, it wasn’t a smooth transition into sober life for me. I struggled early on, mostly because I had so many questions racing around my head. It was like that game 'whack-a-mole' - just as one would slink down, another would pop up. They were typically as follows -> Would people think I’m an alcoholic? Am I am alcoholic? What does that even mean?? Am I harming myself and relationships I am in? Can I go the rest of my life and not take a drink? How will I hang out with my friends & family? Can I ever be in a social setting with alcohol and not drink? Will men I am dating think it’s weird I don’t drink and that I have baggage with that? And around-and-around we go.
I look back now and feel sorry for that person. At the time, I didn’t know any better; there are no guidelines to follow. Google can’t help you with this one. The journey down this winding road is yours alone. And that left a massive weight on my shoulders. I finally realized the only way I was going to be able to do this was to try and understand the science of it all, to educate myself on the cause & effect of alcohol to the brain, and why so many people depend on it.
So, what did I do and what do I continue to do?? I read anything I can get my hands on. I listen to podcast after podcast about people’s real-life struggles, and exploration into health & wellness. I research and look up anything that has to with all of the above topics, and enact a ton of self care that includes keeping a strict routine of early morning workouts. It took a few weeks, but everything started to fall into place. And it will for you too.
Check out my “Tools & Ressources” page for specific examples. I will be adding to it all the time, but for now, I have listed anything of substantial use for me in these past 5 months. Knowledge is power. Educate yourself, listen to other people’s stories and experiences, get your health back on track – all this will help you become a stronger person who is prepared to fight to get her life back. xo Kitty